Spectrum

So some of you might have seen this series of pictures... Anyways I went to claim my portfolio back and i received some comments from Jing, my lecturer. She said she was conflicted, not sure if the pictures were conceptual enough. But she placed my in the conceptual area at the end of the day...

I personally like them but I dun think it is very well received by her. So I'm not very optimistic about the grade for this sem... I hope I get at least a B+...

I personally regret blowing the pics out to big in the portfolio... I will do it differently if I have time to redo...

Anyways click here to know the idea behind the pics...

POST EXAM DEPRESSION

HEY! oops i know it has been so long since I last posted something so here i am! it's after my exams FINALLY!!!

Ok... I know you should be feeling HAPPY YAY YAY YIPPEDEEDAA-ish happy pom pi pi.. But that is only if you are feeling VEERRRYYYYYYY confident about your papers! I jus know this sem is gona be jus bad BAD BAADDDDDD... I mean I need a miracle for something to happen!

3 disasterous papers are jus too overwheming for me... so now i'm gonna get into my POST exam thing! watching The Hills n etc etcetera...jus like tt word haha hope i didnt spell it wrongly...

FIERCE!

HAHA Finally this pictures r UP!!! I've been having such difficulty putting them up here! So troublesome! Anyways these pics are just AWESOME!!! Taken at the old creepy Changi Hospital, and all thanks to Marcus the photographer, that these pics turned out so nice! haha

Love them all! So nice!!! There are more but in order to not overload u all these shall be the ones up here! haha (ok maybe cos they are not as nice but still quite good ok! haha)

Anyways if you all r thinking what have I been busy with?! Well this is why! haha my photography module requires me to have a blog! So all my energy right now is dedicated to tat! haha go take a look n comment!

HAPPY STRAW DAY!!!

HAHA yes today is STRAW DAY!!!

So you might be asking 'What IS STRAW DAY?!' Well Straw Day is when you are supposed to drink through STRAWS! haha Even when you are drinking from your water bottle! And when you are drinking through your straws, you feel loved cos you know somewhere out there another person you love dearly is drinking through a straw too! So you are connected with them through straws and feel loved...


So yesterday after going to sch for a project meeting which only lasted an hour, I spent most of my time helping Stacey, the person behind the conception of Straw Day, to prepare for her straw glasses, fans, magic wands and sash for Mr Straw King... (Nope dun worry tat is not me haha) As usual we made a fool of ourselves yesterday in the deck... I wonder why!?




Oh while posting these pics of us in our straw made retro big glasses, I found these pics of Banana/B2 and I at the PHILANTROPHIC (hope I spelt it rite) Civil Defence charity event premier of Max Payne (which sucked big time).


Oh the picture below was after photoshopped cos I realised a flaw after taking this picture tat day... A very sad flaw... So here is the after photoshopped version... Not gonna show you the before picture! haha Oh and the butter/salty popcorn at Lido is so nice! haha But it's so fat and 'heaty'!!!






And I found these pics too SY! haha not sure if I tagged u in this pic but I will do it now! haha Anyways I'm in depression (kinda) cos looking thru these pics, I feel like something seemed to be getting worse... So... yes... Stacey! I need your SELF CONFIDENCE!!!

To the moon and back

The Es!!!

Ok so yes we cam-whored yesterday at the deck after I got my camera and went to meet the Es for Yong Tau Fu. And seemed like Vicky had something going on and I hope she is feeling much better now... and after awhile, Ms Lopez got in to the upcoming Halloween mood and decided to show me her costume! It was hilarious and embarassing but as usual we are too COOL to be bothered by the frequent stares we receive from the people walking by!

Nice anot?!

So had the cheerleading performance today... I would say it was not bad... The most fun in the past few weeks and not to mention alittle drama... haha ok not tat much drama but quite drama la...

Ok so as I was saying although my 'Chair' didnt go up as planned (very disappointed with myself), it was still fun and exciting! haha this got me thinking about my choice...

So after the performance I left quite fast and for the first time in my LIFE (I think) I ate BK ALONE!!! hai no one wants to come out n makan dinner with me... but aiya I wanted to take some night shots as well so... what der heck haha So after shooting for a million and one times at the MOON, I finally got one decent one which is not shakey/blur/over exposed/under exposed etc... haha well I tot it looked not bad so HERE IT IS!!! It is gonna take over my Handphone Low Key shot.
Oh and this is my fav shot of tonight also! Was trying to act pro in front of this other DSLR user, despite the fact that I was desperately looking for the buttons to adjust the ISO and wonder y cant I adjust the aperture and other stuff... sucks!

EMO!!!

My fave SHOT!!!

Hey people! Some might have noticed or was informed of last week's great depression but no worries! It's over! (I hope) But last night took some really nice emo-ish pics of ME!!! haha obviously I'm not the photographer Geng Cheong aka Tim is! n sadly I realised tat my side profile SUCKS big time! haha these are the decent looking ones after 11232million shots of me... haha

So ya emo-ish rite! haha and here are some of the pics I took last nite! not alot but finally something worth showing! haha

Perspective 1

Yes I know this is blur... dunno what theme this suits haha

Perspective 2

Low Key 1

Low Key 1 (take 2)

Short Hair

I am so SHOCKED now!!! I was reading today's tidbits of Perez Hilton when I saw THIS!!!

I mean WHAT!!! SHORT HAIR!!! It's so MAJORLY UGLY!!! I HATE IT!!! It makes her LOOK OLD!!! FIERCE?! NO!!!

I'm officially sad...

Musical Day

Just finished my Disney day with two movies, Camp Rock and High School Musical 2! Both SO NICE!!! haha yes I know High School Musical 2 is like so last year! (literally cos I remembered I was doin my sem1 horrible math module and talking about the show coming out soon... MEMORIEESSS!!! ALL ALONEEE IN THE MOOONLIGHTTT!!!)

Ya both movies were nice but the best movie today was Big Trouble In Little China!!! It's damn RETARDED! So JX-Trashy-humour!!! So NICE and HILARIOUS!! haha I love how when the two sorcerors fight with their hand beams, the bad guy crossed his pinkies and toggled his thumbs like he was playing some PS3 game! haha he was controlling his virtual projected samurai to fight Egg Shen (the good guy)!!! Damn FUNNY!!! And Kim Catrall from Sex and the City is in it also! She was so young and SKINNY!!! So HUSSY-ish!!! haha

And today kinda suck cos after last saturday's outing, I'm now down with a major BLOCK NOSE!!! I cant BREATHE!!! And my throat is tight and weird... I think I'm definitely coming down with something MAJOR!!! Let's hope it's nothing worse cos being sick is damn boring and annoying... And because of me falling ill, I decided to withdraw from tomorrow's Alpha Verve performance outside the library...

So tat means more sleep time haha cos i think I need it since I'm gonna be up till dunnow who knows when till I'm finally done with my Reflection Item for NM2216!!! Sucks to be me... Halfway through the reading, I decided to come on here n write this entry... the things I do to not do work sucks!

Oh and for some weird reason, I cant seem to open my hotmail inbox! and when I'm in, I cant read the mails! So weird!!! I cant do anything man... somebody HELP ME!!! I think my com is infected with VIRUSES!!! Trojan HORSE?! BUGS? WORMS? HACKER?!?!?!?!

Gossip Girls

SO NICE!!!

I finally saw the premier of 90210 2.0 n the new season of Gossip Girls! SO NICE!!! Everyone is so fabulous! And I'm also watching the new season of Janice Dickinson's Modelling Agency! Which is nice too! haha

Oh and today I went to Zhu Zhu's house to play MAHJONG!!! N guess what! I won!!! HAHA but it was jus $1.30! haha

N I'm so dead... School is in full swing and I'm so preoccupied with TV and everything else except for SCHOOL STUFF!!! and Tuesday I have a performance already with Alpha Verve... excited? maybe... Nervous? ya cos we r so NOT prepared!

Sick of school...

TV marathon

sucks... the time is finally here when ALL the nice shows are coming back on TV! With 90210 2.0 premiering tonight (2nd Sept) in the US and GG last night, it sparks the start of this sem's weekly TV/Tudou marathon!

Just when I thought I can finally become a full time mugger after I'm done with catchin up on Naruto manga, (which is by the way kinda sad cos everyone is DYING! and the story is becoming less interesting...) all these shows have to return all together...

LONG STORY!!!

HELLO!!! It has been ages since I last updated something on this!

So as you know school has started and since i'm unable to multi-task, I'm having difficulty balancing EVERYTHING! So here are some of the things that I am gonna do or is doing...

First, some of you might know, I'm now a CHEERLEADER! haha NO! it wont be another dragon boat incident! I'm gonna stay through and get my hot bod! haha

Secondly, I'm gonna join MUAY THAI also! haha SO COOL RITE! I tell you after this sem, I'm so gonna get banging hot Michael Phelps-ish ABS and biceps of a STACEY LOPEZ!

Thirdly, highly motivated by BETTY BENJI and STACEY LOPEZ's speedy improvement in DRIVING! I'm gonna be starting on my driving lessons SOON! Tomorrow marks my first driving lesson! So watch out F1! Here I come!

Fourth, since I have so much bills to pay, I'm gonna work! Not everyday cos of shit loads of assignments and projects on my hand this sem... So good luck SY! Hope we can be COLLEAGUES!

Fifth, like I said this sem I'm doing 2 non examinable mods so it's gonna be damn busy for me throughout... Just last fri, I submitted a 500 word assignment already... I know so SOON RITE?! Unbelievable... But DEAN'S LIST here i come! *keeps my fingers crossed HAHA*

Sixth, how can I hav no social life?! So no worries beautiful people! You all will get a piece of me! I'll make time for you all! haha

Lastly, how can I neglect my animes, mangas and american tv?! I mean september is the time where 90210 2.0 is debuting! And also Season 2 of GOSSIP GIRLS, Desperate Housewives, Heroes, Ugly Betty(I think) and MANY MORE!!! haha CANT WAIT!

Ya so you see! with so much on my hands you can only understand how busy I am! So it's not that I'm neglecting people or being non-proactive k! If I didnt msg or ask you all out means I'm BUSY! So forgive me! ASK ME OUT! haha

Oh and since STACEY keeps commenting how her ear drums are bursting with my loud music, I've decided to remove it... haha I agree it does get kinda annoying after awhile... Oh and talking bout music, I'm rite now super into this new emo-ish song, Greg Laswell's cover of Girls Just Wanna Have Fun. Yes I know this is a super upbeat happy song by Cyndie Lauper but his rendition is jus so sad! So emo-ish! Tat I'm feeling emo hearing it! And so this is my emo song of this sem! haha

Oh and I forgot to mention I'm right now having The Hills marathons haha trying to catch up to season 4... I hope there will be some one uploading season 3 cos now there are only 2 episodes... The Hills is so NICE and DRAMA! haha GO WATCH PEOPLE!!!

And this reminds me... Some of you might have heard about my ENCOUNTER last thursday... *plays X-Files theme song* So last thursday when I was walking home in the morning, I heard the sound of water hitting the ground aka PEEING! *GASP* Ya so as I approach my house cautiously, I looked over to my left and I saw the most unsightly thing EVER!!! A NAKED MAN!!! He was in this squatting/shitting position with nothing on except his pants around his ankles and when he noticed me he STOP and STARED at me! *plays Onerepublic song, OMG! the song is so apt for this moment!*

SO yes back to the story, I opened my house door but kept checking if he was still there... and everytime I looked over, I would see him STARIN at me!!! *the HORRORS!!! DUM DUM DUM DUMMMMMM!!!!* So I hurriedly entered my house worrying if he would come touch me with his DIRTY HANDS! But I still kept peeping out to see if he was still there... So after a few peeps, I told my grandma about it and she immediately went hysterical and ran out of the house shouting and scolding at the guy.... (Oh maybe I should mention, the guy is NOT an old man he is somewhere around MY age I think... So ya he might not be THAT crazy as well cos apparently he could converse, deny showing his IC to us, and run when I called the police)

So yes after awhile, my grandmother went back in the house and grabbed the phone, I took the phone and called the cops and the next thing I know, he disappeared without a trace leaving nothing but his rather big pool of URINE and SHIT! Fortunately we didnt have to clean it ourselves, the cops came after like HALF AN HOUR LATER!!! and said they would ask the town council people to clean it up for us... So yes my life has so much DRAMA!!! haha

Oh one more thing, B2! THIS IS WAR!!! How can you post and tag such HIDEOUS pics of me!!! You are so gonna be the next EDISON CHEN or Dawn Yang! It is situations like these that cause those photos to be leaked!

Ok I think this post is damn long... so till next time ciao ciao!

SINGFEST!!!

OMG!!!

I knew the Indonesia trip next week was not good when it clashed with my Oweek, bidding, being rite before sch, missing the Simbiosis anniversary/Wii day, missing Hannah's Birthday, missing F.I.R. concert and now I am missing one more thing! And it's SUPER BIG AND UBER COOL!!!

Becos I'm flying this Sunday afternoon, I am now gonna miss my chance at going to SINGFEST!!! Sponsored by Heineken, my dad will have free tix now and I CAN'T GO!!! For the second day tat is... can still go for the first day but... I already got something on on saturday so... ARGHH!!!!! SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!!!

In Loving Memory

R.I.P. Buttface

26/07/08 11.35am ~ 26/07/08 1.05pm

No love and no labels

OMG!!! My dad jus returned from the land of the rising sun, Japan! And while he bought back two Burberry BLUE LABEL bags for my mom and sis (FYI: he jus recently bought them a Gucci and a LV bag each respectively), he bought nothing back for me... He only bought a Versace perfume for me with DVB bag and scarf as free gifts... (So sad that they are giving DVB things out for free to jus any customer) Oh I'm not the only one with perfume, my mom and sis has their perfumes too! YSL and Versace! SO UNFAIR RITE!!!

Nobody loves me, everybody hates me...

Anyways! Today was a super duper failed attempt at trying to tan ourselves at Sentosa... (Ok not that I am super excited to go tan haha so everything went my way!) So we ended up shopping at Vivocity early in the morning 10 plus o'clock!

SY n I with our new SHADES!!!

And today at Vivocity I bumped into two Andreas! haha JC Andrea RA RA was there with her guitar and UNI dancing queen Aundrea (dunno the spelling haha but I have a feeling it is the same spelling but different pronounciation)!!!

But the most fun thing about today is... I HAD A PET!!! haha although it was a short 1 and a half hours, it was super fun! It was a blue CHEE WA WA balloon dog! N we named it BUTTFACE! (For some apparent reasons!)

Unfortunately I was the culprit for his untimely demise... while trying to inflate the tail of Buttface, I accidentally punctured a small hole and what happened next was too explicit for the faint hearted...

Buttface playing dead!

Buttface the Fashionista! Sporting multiple different looks! A master of disguise!

Buttface lives life on the edge!

Here are it's last moments...

So Much DRAMA!!!

Hmm my day was feeling kinda sucky today... cos once again I felt like I dun really have tat many ladders n stuff... (well if you know wat I mean) ya but the thing is I had a moment of fun with Sabrina and her bf, Yan, and his frens today at Chua Chu Kang...

Sabrina and I waiting for the crew to set the things up haha

The thing I hate about these pics is my EYES!!! they are so weirdly staring at the corner of the pic cos firstly the place is kinda dark and my vision was detered cos I wasnt wearing my contacts haha

Today was my first acting debut! It was a super fun thing to do but acting is not as easy as I tot it would be haha basically Yan, the director, is doing a, I think, 7 minute short film about this professional killer and his series of victims... So he asked me to act as one of the victims... My role was basically me talking on the phone and walking in the carpark and the killer slash my throat and I jus bleed to death...

I was damn amused with the idea and image of me choking in my own blood and holding onto my throat grasping for dear life... My fren told me to channel my inner Paris Hilton House of Wax persona when I do the filming cos of my infamous imitation of Paris Hilton in House of Wax before she dies with a pole stuck in her head...

So I dressed up and took my shots haha EVERYTHING IS SO FUN!!! and seriously filming for a single scene is such a tedious process!!! but everything is so fun haha I can totally see their passion for their project and the whole movie industry and stuff... I felt like I could totally fit in as well cos they are such movie and tv buffs as well! but they know much more than me esp about the directors and stuff and the whole scene transitions and etc... these made me count my ladders as well haha

As I was sayin... the entire thing was damn FUN! I was stained with so much fake blood that I looked damn gross and looked like a human wreckage! haha I was staining everything I touch and everywhere I go! Sabrina was damn funny to watch and be with! My favourite moment was when she pronounced the word DOZEN as DOE-sen! HAHA Her response after was priceless! So bimbotic, simple, innocent and naive! So CUTE!!! haha Well I hope Yan's project goes smoothly and hopefully my acting didnt ruin his film haha

N hopefully I will get my blood stained pics soon so I can show ya'll my acting chops! and also about hopefully maybe I can show u all my short cameo in the film! haha

Anyways as I was saying today is a sucky day... I jus realised also tat I was not informed of a certain program... I'm not sure why maybe it was purely unintentional but ya I was left out... and I saw a message written on my wall which also made me realise am I doin the rite thing? wat if I am left with nothing? stuck in between and attached to none...

Ok on to another topic... I was thinking wat if I use this for the Sushi tee 'S in heart' idea? I would jus need to draw an S in the puzzle heart and we jus print it on a blue tee jus the lines alone no color involved this would cheapen the cost for the tee haha well that is if the sushis see this and stuff cos I didnt inform anyone about it...

counting my ladders

High School Reunion

Have I changed? Have I walked out of my past and fit in for once?
Does everyone have part of their lives where they want locked inside a save and buried deep underground and decompose over time?!

There was a time where I hate being myself. That I do not fit in and I put up this façade trying desperately to fit in. I never liked to talk about my past not when I am the butt of all jokes, not when everyone knows me in 3 other names other than my real name (and that does not include Kern).

Like a self mutilating individual, the pain inflicted by the knife’s sharp edge leaves scars behind. The damage done made me into who I am today. A private and fearful person who hides behind a mask away from criticism and forever worrying what others might think of me.

Hiding behind a mask has made me someone with multiple personas, and I think I have different Me-s in different group settings. And sometimes I have difficulty finding my true self. Do I even have a true me? Will I like it? Most importantly would other people like it too?

People might say why live your life for others? But it is easier said than done. If other people do not like you then why bother living when life would be miserable and pointless? Certain thoughts have occurred to me before but I’ve never acted upon them. Am I not damaged enough?

Will I ever walk out of my shadows? Or will my past catch up with me eventually? What will I do when it does?